I’m completely terrified at this point to graduate. I don’t really show it because I mean it sounds stupid. But I’m really going to miss seeing the people I see every single day no matter how annoying they got. It’s not going to be like this, even if I am going to Essex it’s not going to be as easy or carefree as this. I’m excited to move on with my life and do more and see what happens but then again I’m not. High school for me wasn’t like oh party all the time and it wasn’t my life. School was school for me and that’s basically it. I’m going to miss my best friends that are going to a school 45 minutes away. I just don’t want to lose the relationships I have with them and I really hope that doesn’t happen. It’s like I want to talk about it with someone but I can’t because everyone else is done with school. I’m totally done too, I can barely stay a whole day. But when I’m home and thinking about it I get so scared. I just don’t really know how to feel about things lately. That’s probably why I’ve been fighting with my mom and sister so much lately. I never want to be home so I just go out and that’s not a good thing to just walk away. But I just don’t want to deal with it right now.